I'd Rather be a Pessimist

I would rather be a pessimist and be happy once in a while than be an optimist and be disappointed all the time. -Anonymous

Have you ever been really depressed? I mean like really depressed. I mean slit your own throat shoot your self in the head depressed. Well I have and it is the best thing that can happen to you. I'm serious, when you hit rock bottom then you know how bad it can get. It puts a new perspective on things. It lets you think straight and get the things you want. I know that many tell you that if you have a positive outlook on life than you will be happy. What I'm telling you is this. If you have a positive outlook on everything your just going to crash damn hard.

I once had a positive outlook on life. I thought that the world was a great place and that universal peace was just within our grasp. Well needless to say I was wrong. I ended up with divorced parents an abusive ex-stepfather and horrible academic achievements(or lack there of). Around the age of 13 I started to look at the world differently. I decided to lower my expectations. You wanna know what happened? I was happy. Maybe not just saved a life happy. Maybe not just one the lottery happy. But for the first time in a long time I wasn't totally suicidal. (I was still suicidal but only for about three months).

Since then my life just keeps getting better and better. I started to do well in school. I started to do things I used to be scared of doing. And again, I'm happy. So I suggest to all of you to do what I do. Be a pessimist.